Surrendering Throughout Inner Healing

I am at this Moment in the process of healing from molestation, exploitation, prostitution and lesbianism.  This sexual curse that has followed me around all of my life starting with being molested by my father and it didn't end there. He happened to be a Baptist pastor and his deacons and elders of the church put me into child pornography and it was too make money for the church I'm quite sure of it. It is like his church is a cult and people who are in his church has Stockholm syndrome for they have ostracized me for becoming a prostitute at the age of fourteen years old.  I have been protecting a very difficult secret and it's killed me emotionally,  mentally and spiritually until recently and I am a new believer in Christ Jesus.  I am ready to uncover and unravel this. I have become as sick as my secrets and tonight I vomited up alot of things that I have been holding in. I feel better although this isn't going to just stop! I'm well aware of this, however tonight is the first time I have purged some toxic assets from my past up so tonight is significant to my road to deliverance in the Lord Jesus Christ.
I'm going to close this up by saying please do not give up five minutes before the miracle happens!!!
Journey to Totality ( Karla )

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